KIAHGEK'S JOURNEY

HAPPY V'DAY!(:

2012-02-14T11:48:00.000-08:00

Best photo of the day(: hee.

HAPPY V'DAY EVERYBODDEHH(:

Today was just like every other day i had. it was definitely well-spent with my dearest. We had a very simple yet enjoyable&lovely dayy(: V'day to me is not really about receiving roses, gifts and having big plans. What really matters is that you are spending it with your dearest(: &on top of that, there shouldn't be such things like showing more love just cause its Valentine, i mean yeahh, you know what i mean.

Dd and i failed to have our study date today but its okay, we got ready for our movie date instead:D Watched Chronicles(: Umm, not too bad just that i got really giddy while watching. haha. Cus its kinda like from a first person view. Afterwhich we went to grab some food for our mini night picnic& headed to one of our favourite hangout place; HENDERSON WAVES<3 YAY(: Exchanged our lil gifts and chatted(:

There is so much to a person that you can learn about. So never assume that you knw someone just because you have known them for a period of time. Communication really plays an important role in a r/s, or should i say in every relations we have with people around us. So back to whr i was, we camwhored& munch on our yummy foods:D

Home sweet home with my dearest just right beside me nooow(': &y'knw what, we're both having tummyache. HAHAHAHA. must be the food we ate. But whatever it is, it has been a great day(:

LOVEEES. CIAOS.

FAITH

2012-02-12T08:25:00.001-08:00

FAITH.

Decided to blog on this topic since i felt kinda inspired to do so nooow. Well but don't worry. i'm not starting on anything religious here.

i often wonder how Thomas Edison, Albert Einstein, Professor Leonard Kleinrock etc can make it to the top and i have come to a conclusion that apart from traits such as perseverance and determination, FAITH plays a very important role, regardless of how big or small the task is.

Faith in oneself brings about confidence and hope. When you start believing in yourself, you'll actually realize that a clearer goal is set ahead of you and you will be motivated to do so. Also, it gives people lesser chance of bringing you down because when you have faith in yourself, you will be able to succeed!

But of course, many will say that it is easier to be said then done. True enough becus at different course of life, there will be people who comes into your life and bring you down. & its okay to feel dishearten cus that just shows that you're only human& have emotions too. BUT never forget about the goals you wished to achieved at the end of the day.

Faith is a single yet powerful word. it brings about many changes, subconsciously. Not only that, it also pushes oneself for breakthroughs, positively. To sum up, it is really important to have faith whether is it in terms of religions or oneself.

You have to first believe in order to succeed(:

"Never give up hope on others, but most importantly never give up on oneself. have faith."

& i live by that principle.

Goodnight lovelies(:

bzse(:

2012-02-09T18:49:00.000-08:00

Musical Team with SUMMEERR!:D

Actual day musical(:

Share it, Love it, Post it(:

Well done for pitching!

BZCelebration marks the end of our hectic semester.

BZCelebration was really great yesterday. All our hardwork was all presented to the guest tonight(: Though my group didn win for the pitching, it does not matters as much because i strongly believe that everything we do is a learning experience for us. It was a wonderful experience& i really acknowledge all my grp member's effort. thankyou for putting in so much effort(':

Through this BZCelebration, i have got to know many lovely year 1s & they're really a batch of awesomme peeps! really thankyoou all for the awesome moments, esp those with the musical people:D hee!

For now, we still have our examinations and YMCA Challenge to work for.

So, Press onn everyone!

happy:D

2012-02-04T05:44:00.000-08:00

HIHI. had a really simple yet lovely day today:D Met Dd to dye our hair at aunty annie's house(: (Y) She is one of the best person who can i trust my precious hair too. heh. So anyway after lots of consideration, i have decided to dye my hair_____. fine, i dunno what is it called because it is a combination of 2 different colour. but i shall just take it as red. haha. Its not very obvious tho unless its under any lighting/ sunlight. mehhhh:/

Edited Picture(: haha. My hair look kinda purple here.

actual colour(:

xoxo(:

i'm always here

2012-01-31T07:15:00.000-08:00

Its blogging time!:D so my dear boy was sick today:/ all of a sudden): felt so lost at what i can do for him, he is too independent alr): so anw, cabb-ed to my house straight after bizcomm& Dd managed to get his comfy rest(: Felt so happy when i finally get t see his smile after he woke up(: hee.

#random# It reminded me of the time when i was sick, he took care of me despite his busy schedule& he even bought porridge after knowin that i have not eaten the whole day. (': Though what i could gave him today was just my company, i swear it was genuine and sincere.

Nonethless, i'm really glad that he is fine nooow(':

I LOVE YOOU DD<3

courage

2012-01-30T06:04:00.000-08:00

I envy people who have the courage to take that step to sacrifice a 'part' of themselves to help people who needs it more than them. thats what i call selfless& i'm still far from it:/ My lovely classmate, Grace actually went to snip off her long hair and donate it to an organization; Locks of Love. & just last year, one of my senior shaved her hair bald for Hair for Hope.I really look up to this people especially they are girls *plus points*&not only that their hair plays a relatively important role on how they look like, but to take the courage to donate their own hair off is really smth i look up to alot.

& Its amazing how i actually find them even more attractive after their haircut. maybe this is what people call it as; INNER BEAUTY? umm, must be. really admire them alot.

I really really wish that one day i'll have the courage and to take that step out, to be selfless for a greater cause.

tell me how does it feels like t have a friend close to heart.

2012-01-28T09:06:00.000-08:00

I really envy the friendship bond between this group of guys.

finding joy in hectic life

2012-01-25T09:57:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile& i'm backk! Been leading quite a hectic life recently but its okay, i'm glad i'm finding joy in whatever i do cus that makes everything more enjoyable:D So..assignment datelines are all nearing& i've yet to arrange a meeting with my intern supervisor, dance& musical rehearsal practices, followed by bzcelebration coming up, exams, internship. haha. and the list goes on and on.

OHHH! hows everyone's cny?(: collected lots of AngBao?:D Actually to me, cny is not about red packets but instead the gathering session you get to have with all ur family members and relative, a season when everyone gets together happily. BUT... well. cny has been rather happening for me. it wasn't really enjoyable this year& i can say its one of the worst cny i ever had. But nonetheless, on a brighter thought, this was also my first year going t different areas to bai nian with Dd's family(: On the second day of cny, i got to meet his relatives& cousins!:D hee. After that, we went to Sean's house to celebrate& 'gamble' with his clique. hahaha.&of course not forgetting that 2 cuttie pie; nicky& bingo:D woooof! so adorable:D hope i spelt their name correctly.

*Sidetracking* Actually i really hope to have a dog in future^^ just loove their company:D Dd love dogs too& if possible, we're hoping to adopt one in future! keke.

So enough of all my random thoughts& i will try t update my blog whenever i'm free, tho i doubt there are any readers anw. haha. pathetic much:/

Time to get back to my work! Ciaos peepoos(: Do have an early nite:D

Dreams.

2012-01-11T08:57:00.000-08:00

ELLO(: Watched one of John Beede's motivational video& it really triggered my emotions. Just gonna write whatever sentences i can catch while the video is playing. haha.

He gave a scenario using fleas as an example. He illustrated

"a little flea that is no bigger than a button of your cell phone can jump up to 25 -30 feet straight up into the air. In order to make a flea circus, take a whole bunch of this fleas and put them in a jar. After that, take a piece of cardboard and cover the jar. You will noticed these fleas jumped up with full force, slammed their heads on the 'ceilings'& fall back down into the jar. They do it over& over again. Until the flea starts to associated pain with jumping high. So when you take these fleas out of the jar, you'll realize that for the rest of their life, these fleas would only jumped however high the cardboard was set."

(the sentence are not totally identical to what he said.)

&thats when we start to think, to think about the time when we were still a kid, when anything seem possible. Many of us dream of many possibilities we hoped to achieve. Astronaut, Baseball player etc.We are always enthusiatic and full of energy back then&there comes the sentence which triggered my emotions--> "But i don't think we dream like that anymore." John Beede said. This is because through the course in our life, people came in and put that cardboard over our head; we got pull down, discouraged& that is when we stopped dreaming like how we are when were young.

But the question now is, can we do it again?

YES, WE CERTAINLY CAN.

DREAM BIG& DON'T DOUBT.

LOOK OUT FOR OPPORTUNITIES& TAKE ACTION(:

Thankyou John Beede for being such an inspiration(:

Faith& Believe.

2012-01-11T02:56:00.000-08:00

Never felt so driven to do smth about my life before& i really want this feeling to last because it is really pushin me forward. feeling happy& great:D cus I know, as long as we don't give up, something can be done.

加油!<3

Let us all be happy(:

2012-01-08T09:16:00.000-08:00

Back to school tmr! kinda looking forward to it^^ hee. But lets just hope that this time round i wouldn doze off during lessons or so. haha. speaking of this, i realized smth about myself; the older i get, the shorter my attention span gets during lesson, which is smth really bad. Shall be a good girl and turn in early todayy(: Tmr shall be another happy day! Goodnight peeps:D

2012-01-07T05:32:00.000-08:00

HAPPYGIRL here to blogg(: Last day of open house today& at least i got to help out^^ 很开心(: Got to meet some KR peeps as well tho i do not know them but we manage to clique really well. HEE(: they even asked me t join them in those sec1s orientation events. so nice of them!:D saw my aunt and cousin as well. haha.

anw to sum it up, it was really great(:

HAPPY 21ST DAJIE(:

2012-01-06T06:24:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DAJIE(:

Hi my dearest dajie(: happy 21st birthday! Now u're an adult alr!:D haha. but its ok, cus i know you're always gonna be young at heart(: age is just a number anyway^^ we will still be meeting up for dance, makan& kbox session de(: hee. hope in this 21th birthday, you've a clearer idea of what you want in life& the things you wish to work towards. thankyou for being my wonderful dajie^^ &the rest of the speech i believe, is alr written in the birthday card^^

Attended dajie's birthday celebration& i got to meet her friends(: all friendly people. not forgetting lovely charlene. so adorable^^ HEE:D guess its a small world after all, one of dajie's friend actually knew Dd. haha(:

2012-01-04T10:48:00.000-08:00

NGEE ANN POLY OPEN FROM 5-7th Jan!(:

DO COME DOWN TO SCHOOL OF HUMANITIES& LIFE SCIENCES

& CHECK OUT BZSE; business& Social Enterprise^^

Bet Np will be flooded with lots of students. Frankly speaking, i really hope to be thr to help out.. but sighh. felt kinda sad after knwing that i do not have to help out anymore jus because i didn attend the briefing. Gonna miss out all the fun..

Really upset but 不想说了, cause i'm gonna do things that will cheer me up instead!(: Gonna start my day off by going for a jog with dajie(: its going t be a good day ahead i believe.

2012(:

2012-01-03T08:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE(: A new start& working towards a better me(: 2011 have been a great year for me& i look forward to more good things in this new year:D Hopefully more breakthroughs, growth& achievements^^ hee.

2011-12-28T10:26:00.000-08:00

i believe each of us at one point or other wished to be fought for, wished to know there is someone out there who can't afford to lose us..

i don't want to be a nobody, i want to be a somebody.. at least to you. <3

FEEL YOUR HEART

2011-12-27T10:32:00.000-08:00

Giving.

Read a book recently& it kinda open me up to more possibilities and hopes in life(: Its true that what i'm doing now may seem insignificant& almost impossible to make any change/impact in the society but at least i know i'm taking the step out to give back to the society. An act of kindness goes along way for many people and it does have its chain effects subconsciously. Like a domino effect, it just goes on& on.

It is a fact that all humans have the capacity to love(: So i believe its important that we learn to give, no matter how small it is. We don't always have to start big or to even be equipped with any skills to give. Anyone can be a change-maker in this world as long as you're willing(:

SOO. What are you waiting for? let your thoughts be heard& take action today!:D

BUDBUDDD!(:

2011-12-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

Before i start, AHBUDD! we forgot t take pictures todayy):

So anw, met my favorite ahbudd around evening at bugis (: MISS HER SO MUCHH! it has been quite some time since we're out again:D hee. So as usual, i was lost& she had t come meet me somewhr i knw. hhhahah. like always-.- HEEHEE. Walked around bugis street and did some catching up. i think we can multi-task really well; window shopping & sharings at the same time:D Um, was really glad to hear from her again after so long& i'm really happy for her:D hee.

*Ahbud, if u ever need someone t talk t, feel free to approach me yeah(: listening ear always here<3*

Umm, so since dd was free for dinner, we managed to meetup for alil while(: The 3 of us played diamond dash together on dd's ipad and we managed to break the high score& got 1st on the scoreboard. hohoho. like-a-high-only:D after dinner, dd left for his recruitment, bud went to look for her bf& i head home(:

OHHH& It was so sweet of budbud to get me a christmas present^^ *touched* really like it alot!(: AHBUDDD! 谢谢你!(':

Cinderella& her shoes:D HEE!

To sum up, it was a lovely day for me^^

Determination

2011-12-16T12:10:00.000-08:00

Went for my very first open class with dajie in oschool&& felt that it was a great experience. Not only that, it really reflects where our standard of dance is at, which is CUI. sighzxz. while i was still struggling, tryin out to figure out the steps, all the dancers are already trying to perfect their moves. Their learning ability are really fast, felt so inferior:/ Really wish that one day i would be like them. really really do:/

its just me being me.

2011-12-15T05:00:00.000-08:00

I'm just the next-door-kinda girl you will find randomly down the street. Whilst some people may think that being typical& common is too overrated, i think i adore being one. i don't enjoy having unnecessary spotlights, i don't feel comfortable hanging around with too many new faces& i'm the type of girl who watches a touching video and end up tearin like thrs no tmr. it is extremely tough for me to open up& for people whom i ever opened up to, please don't take it for granted:/ i'm afraid of getting hurt and as much as i seem to open to everyone, i have 'walls' built around me. no one can really get through it, except 1 or2.

Sorry if i come off being really insecure& lonely at times. As depressing as it is, i can't help it. i cry, i over-react for certain stuff but i'm still me. No matter what i change abt myself, there is just one thing i can't seem to change; my attachment to the ppl i love.

& for a girl like me, i'm really thankful& happy that i have such a wonderful boyf who loves me with his heart&soul. These gratefulnesses is jus way beyond words. Just wanna enjoy every moment i have with my love ones(:

oh& when i love, i love wholeheartedly. YOU(:

beautiful memories.

2011-12-14T07:13:00.000-08:00

OHH! How can i ever forget to share this news. hee! Received a card that is made specially for dd& me from the kids in SCAS:D handwritten msg& also pictures that we took w them(': Really appreciate their efforts made. Now that i'm talking abt this, i really do miss them:/ like alot. when will the next time dd& i can get t see them?:/

why do i feel foreign t the word; friends.

2011-12-14T04:30:00.000-08:00

So.. paper for marketing was do-able, given the fact that i don't feel prepared for it. Felt really lethargic in the morning cus Dd& i actually studied till 4plus the previous night. *YAWNS* tireddd bt was really relief& felt rather confident after completing it:D hee.

At the end of Chia's paper, i was feeling all hyped up! maybe becus LAST PAPER= ENJOYMENT(: So went KBOOX with Steph& Feiying&& i swear they are not as demure and gentle from what they look like. HAHHA. *recalling how crazy they were* but it was really enjoyable singing with them:D i like it when they jus let lose and enjoy themselves. No stress at all^^ hee. afterwhich, we took pics with Feiying's polariod!(: she was so nice to give each of us one 'copy':D Went to Taka to get their korean rice cake&& home sweet homee(:

jus bored

2011-12-13T07:00:00.000-08:00

Last paper tmr& i'm already drown in my holiday mood. why-o-why. sang the whole afternoon, fb-ed, changed my blogskin, completed my notes, watched Entertainment 100%& painted my nails. feel like i'm the slackest soul on this earth noow. lol. Really hope i wouldn go into the examination hall w a blank mind. heh. whatever it is, guess i will be burning midnight oil anyway. so it doesn't matter, shall study later then:D Bro wanted me to accompany him down to get some food but he fell aslp while waiting for me. oops. so i guess we're going t give it a miss right?:D haha. Woots&& DD's coming over later after he is done with his stuff in office^^ yay. happygirl. gonna study till morning w my dearest. its a joy somehow(:

OHH!& did i mentioned? i would be going to kbox with Stephanie& Feiying tmr:D its like my very first 'outing' w them. i'm very excited:D yayyy! Gonna take lots of piccc(: *memories*

All the best to all lovelies taking their paper tmr(:

Till then.

苹果(:

2011-12-09T23:46:00.000-08:00

Watched You're the Apple of my eyes for the second time, this time round with my mum& brother. Still remember the first time when i watched it with Dd, he actually prepared tissues for me. hahaha. how adorable can he get?

Though i do not have such happening memories in my past but i do have pure and innocent ones. HAHA. Despite watching it for the second time, it still managed to trigger my emotions. Don't you think its amazing that the director actually wrote his life story into a book and then film it into a movie which is now so well-known? He must have felt very proud of his work. its like watching his past memories happening all over again.

I want that too. i want to look back on my memories one day and know that i've lived a life worthwhile.& that is why i keep diaries& why i love taking pictures of things/moments i do not want to forget. i dun own any good cameras or DXLR(if thats what it is called), but i guess it does not really matter.

Ok i dunno where this post is leading to but i guess my main point here is that, whether is it good or bad, happening or boring but it is what brings us to where we're today. i'm thankful for the memories i can recall (:

Everyday is a good day, just that some are better! Start living life& make it a life worthwhile^^

CIAOS(:

无奈

2011-12-06T04:23:00.000-08:00

昨晚看见你无助的表情，伤心的眼神，让我心好痛。

多希望再此刻能为你做些什么的。

Appreciative(:

2011-12-05T19:33:00.001-08:00

IT'S ALWAYS THE LIL THINGS THAT BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY(:

Today a lady tap me on my shoulder during my bus journey home& she showed concern for my wound even tho we do not know each other.

This lil act is an act of kindness(:

Really appreciate it:D

Kids are real when it comes to love.

2011-12-04T04:20:00.000-08:00

INNOCENCE(:

I love how this feels. Words just sound so beautiful coming from out them(':

Kids don't complicate love. They just love<3

If only such innocence stays in everyone(:

you make me feel alive

2011-12-01T10:06:00.000-08:00

I love you(:
Hee(: taking a break!

MY CUTE DD(:

Another beautiful memory created(:

Had night cycling with DD& it was my first time standing on a bike stand. haha. like sua gu only. hehe. Dd actually went to fixed it on the bike for me and its BLUEE:D *touched* haha. So.. despite having school the very next day, we are out midnight for some re-visiting of DD's past memories. He brought me to places filled with his sec school memories. Really interesting. makes me feel so pathetic, like i don't have any childhood or sec school memories. hahaha. Anw, his life story is really interesting, its so happening kayy! haha. Not only that, we spent quality time learning about one another& i am extremely thankful that we have such bonding time together(:

The route ahead may be filled with challenges,

but i believe we will get through it

& work towards a beautiful future for US(:

Ciaos peepoos(:

international volunteer day; spread the cause(:

2011-11-26T19:25:00.000-08:00

INTERNATIONAL VOLUNTEER DAY!(:

A day i wouldn't forget(:

Its really a pity that so many people are unaware of such event! really learnt alot about different organisations, which opens up more voluntary opportunities for me:D HAPPYGIRL(:

Now, i shall let my pictures do the talking(:

Trying out the manual Wheelchair^^

Experiencing how to communicate w/o the sense of hearing.

Experiencing the sense of touch of a kidney patient.

Kor Kor & Me on the go(:
Experiencing how it feels like to be a stroke patient.

End product! Ta-da(:
its really tough:/

Bed Bugs that is always found in elderly's one-room flat.

Forest Trail(:
Learnt alot on how volunteers get to help ecologically.

One of their aim is to prevent destruction of native plants in Singapore.

Ending off with my dumb face(:

Ciaos.

2011-11-21T07:39:00.000-08:00

Yes yes. i know its over:X but just let me blog about it kayy:D haha.Any idea that World Kindness Day is on 13 November'11?(:

"The purpose of World Kindness Day is to look beyond ourselves, beyond the boundaries of our country, beyond our culture, our race, our religion; and realise we are citizens of the world."

True enough, kindness is a universal language that everyone have in them. Learn to appreciate the things and people around you(: Never underestimate a small act; a smile, a 'thank you' etc, because that may be just the thing to brighten up someone's day.

But of course, World Kindness Day holds a greater vision in making the world a better place for all to live in as it works towards the beginning of a global reaction against exploitation of human& natural resources.

Meanwhile,We can always start small in our own circle or community by bringing peace and order(: i believe our little contribution will make an impact in the world in time to come as long as everyone stays united.

Be what you want the world to be!(:

p/s kind of regretted not volunteering for this year's WKD event:/
Note to self: so gonna volunteer next year(:

i hope to receive daisies on WKD BUT would love more to be the one giving(:

Just a short video to share before signing off(:

WATCH IT!:D HEE.

CIAOS:D

2011-11-19T04:29:00.000-08:00

You gave me hope(:

2011-11-14T11:35:00.000-08:00

EMOTIONS.

Don't you think that is one of the best things we all have in common? i mean it may sound silly, but don't you find it amazing?(: We can feel sadness, anger, happiness, surprise, excitement, hurt and many more. Be it positive or negative emotions, it is what makes us like living beings. Just like animals, they have emotions to&also definitely deserved to be loved and respected.

Oh, talking about animals, pics and videos of animal abuse starts flashing back. Sometimes i really wonder how is it possible for people to do something so inhumane. Its really disturbing. Why are they even able to smile and be so proud of it, even videoing the whole process. WHY? ): How can we solve this problem?:/ Sighzxz.

Under situation for people with such inhumane doings, they are simply sick in their mind& for once i would say, i believe that karma would get back to them. Anw, what goes around comes around. isn't it?

Ciaos.

2011-11-12T21:21:00.000-08:00

No rain can stop us from having fun!(:

i love you like a love song baby(:

Tickets to Underwater World

Dolphin Lagoon, Butterfly&Insects Kingdom(:

SEALS(: SO CUTE^^

I LOVE DOLPHIN!(':

BUTTERFLIES(: beautiful isn't it?

Ended our day with 11.11.11 movie(:

OHH! WHAT A LOVELY DAY(':

Dd surprised me by bringing me to Sentosa Underwater world&dolphin lagoon + Butterfly& Insects Kingdom:D HEE(: So funnn!(: Tho it rained almost the whole day BUT that does not stop us from having fun!:D:D hee. many fishes&sharks&stingray:D weewoo! *Imagine my SUA GU face* HAHA. Managed to feed the fishes but did not have the courage to touch the fishes:X dd was likea brave boy. He even touched the stingray. hee(: Went to dolphin lagoon after that(: FINALLY IN MY LIFE I GET TO SEE A DOLPHIN!(': can you imagine it? &it is one of my life wishes(': Thankyou Dd! (L)

Afterwhich we headed Butterfly&Insects Kingdom(: Despite being in our poncho, we had all the fun in this world(: HEE. Frankly, i'm not a big fan of any insects or butterfly. But it was really a great experience tho it rained quite heavily after that and all the butterflies went hiding. Managed to get shelter in a small hut and we slack thr. it felt quite cozy but i doubt anyone noticed this place. HAHA.

Travelled to Ang Mo Kio after our tea set& watch 11.11.11(: Well, not a fantastic movie. 5/10 maybe? Haha. i admit i jumped quite a few times during the movie BUT it is not because of the storyline but the sound effects-_- haha. dammit.

But it was a wonderful day all in all! I'M A HAPPYGIRL! thankyou for this surprise& i really appreciate it. Totally enjoyed myself(:

LOVE MY ONE AND ONLY DD(':

11:11 w my special one(;

2011-11-11T12:06:00.000-08:00

I swear we had our cutest 11:11(:

Some people may say, "whats so different about 11/11/11,11:11. It is just like another normal day. What for make a big fuss out of it" True enough, it is really just like any other day. BUT such unique date happens only one in our lifetime because the next one that happens would be 100years down the road. On top of that, this date also reminded me that everyday is a day that would only appear once in our lifetime. haha.

So cherish every moment you have for every second spent is a second that you can't take back(:

2011-11-08T04:53:00.000-08:00

Honestly, this is how i react in the middle of the night when i receive your msg(:

&thats why i always love receiving your msg, regardless of time. loveees(:

2011-11-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

NICE GIRL.

In pleasant terms: A girl who is nice and put other needs before her own.

In awful terms: A girl who is afraid to stand up for herself and often live life for others instead of self.

I believe most girls have been through this phase and that makes me no different from them. I have been through this and it took me only till recently to get out of it. i'm afraid to speak up for myself for fear of what others may feel or think about me. I put ppl's need infront of me because i often see my own opinions and needs as insignificant compared to others. I live my life for others instead of self because i thought seeing the rest happy makes me happy too.

BUT through the way it struck me hard that i should start living the life i want. Not that i should be ignorant about others but to be honest with what i really want. i dun want to live a life of regrets, thinking of 'if only i've done..'. I started to connect with my inner self during my own quality time which gave me a greater understanding of myself. i started to speak up more than i used to tho it was really a struggle at start but it felt really great when you know that you've speak your piece and people actually listen to it.

Despite these changes, i'm still me. Needs of others will still be recognize by me. its just more balanced when my own needs are looked into too(: There are still many people i wish to reach out to in this world. Slowly, one step after other, i believe i will(:

All this changes in me dun happen overnight, it may seem nothing to many but to me, it actually meant taking a big step forward because it was a whole lot of struggle within me. it wasn't easy. People may see me as an extrovert, someone who gets along with anyone and everyone. But thats not totally true because i'm actually quite an introvert within. So yeapp, it wasn't easy for changes to take place within me.

Other than my own effort, there is one special person who was there for me all this while and gave me all the patience i ever needed. I know sometimes it gets annoying when i tear over small stuff and i'm very touched that you nvr detest that about me instead each time after i settle down, you assure me that you will be with me through all changes.

Thankful for everything(: i love you, my one and only(':

2011-11-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

I CHERISH&LOVE every moment spent with you. really(: You made me feel things that i've nvr felt before. You exposed me to so many experience i nvr had. You made me complete with you around. &many more, its would really be a long list down the road. haha. This feeling is indescribable. (': Thankyou(: WOAINI!

2011-10-27T06:52:00.000-07:00

Familiar scene. hahaha.

Other than Social Psychology, understanding love and sexuality is definitely one of my favorite module! HEE:D Who says we don't have to learn about love? Yes, i admit certain things does happen naturally but it is always good to equip ourselves with more knowledge(: & honestly, I have learnt alot in just 2 lessons.

I've come to understand why is BOD important in a r/s, why guys react in certain ways and how we can maintain and make our own relationship stable, the differences between girls and guys; not just physically but the way we think and handle stuff, why are girls emotional, being understanding to guy's sexual side; not t give in but to understand why and many more! AMAZINNNG ISN'IT?(: heee. can't wait for the next lesson tho^^

I'm glad i'm able to take away something meaningful each time at the end of his lesson(:

2011-10-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

Hi all! So.. School officially started yesterday but it still felt like holiday to me. die. So nothing much on the first few days of school. just getting-to-know-our-new-tcher kind of thing. So anywhr, met dajie for dance session today and both of us came up with our own set of cheoro(: it was kind of an achievement for beginners i must say^^ HEE.

On a side note, i believe many have alr read the news on the recent hit&drive incident! DISTURBING ISN'T IT?? whats even more disturbing is that, theres so many passer-by but no one bother to help until one aunty came along. Freaking 19 ppl walk passed her&NO ONE helped her at all except for that aunty. really HEARTLESS ppl out there. If only someone were to take the step out to help the girl, she would have been able to prevent the second hit& things would be different. Filled with mixed emotions after watching the video. My heart really ache when i see the girl got drove over&all she could do was t only lie there so helplessly looking at the second van drive towards her. it was really terrible)': Felt so upset seeing her parents feeling so helpless too; all they ever want now is for her daughter to be okay& for the driver t be caught. This must have came t them so sudden that they dont even know how to react to it. really really hope that those irresponsible and heartless creatures would get caught.

What a disgrace to this universe.

Ipad

2011-10-16T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hello everybodehhhh(: I'm using my dd's iPad t blog noow(: hee. Feel so proud and happy for him!(: he bought it with his own money, kaching,~$$ haha. So glad that this lil dream of his is fulfilled(: *happy face* shall go explore his iPad noow! Hahaha:D Ciaos peepoos(:

2011-10-14T21:36:00.000-07:00

Flashmooob for spooktacular was really aweessooome:D Made new friends(: hee. really awesome peepoos. Not to forget, this is my very virgin experience for flashmobb too. hee. Gonna miss those pracs during weekdays& also those random dance session i have with dajie after that. We sure did burnt lots of calories. HAHA.

2011-10-14T21:27:00.000-07:00

Cards made for the kids& tcher^^

Gifts(:

Last day at SCAS before school start! dangg. bought gifts for the kids^^ &was really glad that they like it. HEEE(: DD&i actually stayed up till 6plus in the morning t complete all the cards when we have to wake up 8am in the morning. keke. but the process was really enjoyable (L) Manage to take pics with each individual student. Gonna miss the kids alooot:/

2011-10-05T01:26:00.000-07:00

Volunteer with dd at SCAS today(: hee. the kids had hydro-therapy in the morning! i was actually allowed to join them in this therapy!(: but its a pity that i did not prepare any extra clothing etc. haha. but its alright! its a joy to see them having so much fun. i can still rmb the joyful look on their faces. So anw, after their hydro therapy, they had a mini children day celebration in their classroom!(: yummy snacks was prepared for them, followed by the surprises prepared by the tchers(: they received their gifts&& u should've seen all their happy faces upon opening their presents. haha. so adorable&touched(':

Tmr is their official children's day celebration! Can't wait:D excitedme(: heee! On top of that, i'm meeting benben tmr:D yay! Anticipating a long yet meaningful day tmr^^

dancee!

2011-09-30T12:54:00.000-07:00

Dancee!(:

(L)

So.. headed down to scape at 4pm and danced all the way till 9plus(: teehee. kinda enjoy that feeling!! Since today was the last lesson of hiphop2, we are supposed to practice the cheoro in our assigned groups and also come out with a two 8s cheoro. i'm really proud of my group(: i mean, they nvr complained and we actually just practiced and practice and practice. over and over again, till showcase time. Though there are mistakes made during showcase, its alright because all of us had put in amazing efforts in this dance! hee. now, i'm looking forward to hiphop3:D

(:

2011-09-27T08:26:00.001-07:00

Things at SCAS was great today except alil drama happened during lesson. but overall, it was :D. & today was really greaat(: i'm a blessed girl!(:

LOVE

2011-09-26T08:16:00.000-07:00

WHAT A GREAT DAY TODAY:D So.. resumed my voluntary at SCAS^^ it felt really great. so first day, i aimed on building rapport with the students. i'm fine if they feel uncomfortable talking to me since its their first time seeing me. haha. BUT i was really surprise, they are all so friendly. hee. they made me felt so welcomed! Even teacher joyce(: like her alot! Helped her during their lesson and also break time. Afterwhich they had their sports carnival which was organized by a group of students (forget what are they called:X) It was really a success! There are human mascots and also games for the students to play. Hee. managed to take pic with the mascot and also interacted with some of the student volunteers there. fun fun! Can't wait for tmr t arrive!(:

2011-09-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

HELLO! a random post it shall be todayy(: Was sick the whole of ystd, could hardly consume any water and food because i will be puking them out in the end. Lied in my bed almost the whole day, horrible feeling.

BUT i was really touched when DD surprised me by coming all the way down to my house and bought me porridge, knowing that i've not had anything since morning:D Though i did not finish it etc, but i am really thankful for what he had done for me. seriously(': so touched! &&whatsmore i must say that is the only thing which i consumed and not puked out! haha. amazing. he gave me energy and put a smile on my face when i'm feeling so tired and weak.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SO DAM MUCH<3

HACHIKO

2011-09-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

HACHI:D

This movie that i happened to stumble across online was seriously a tearjerker movie. i understand that this movie have been out for years but i am still gonna recommend it especially to those that have not watched it!:D

This movie is based on a true story in the 1990s. It all started when an Akita puppy was sent from Japan to US but his cage fell off the baggage cart at an American train station and it was there that he was founded by a college professor Parker Wilson. In this movie, you will see how bonds btwn them grow and also how Hachi stay loyal to the professor even after his owner death. This is a simple yet magical and heartwarming true story about loyalty and unconditional love &&i must admit that i've cried bucket of tears, but it was really worth it.

Ever since this story, a Hachiko statue was created outside the Shibuya station which is located in Japan for this famous dog, who has possessed legendary loyalty to his owner. amazing isn't it(:

This is prolly one of the most touching&sad story i've ever seen. Do watch it(:

rate; 8/10

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

2011-09-14T04:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DD!!(:

XIAOLONGBAO:D

RAWRRR!

Smile(:

What a cute cake we've prepared for you(:

teehee^^ Celebrated Dd's birthday at USS this year(: weee. it was our first time thr thus it was really interesting for both of us. HAHA. Small bite at FoodRepublic before heading in to PLAYYY!(: hahha. Taken photo with those Human mascots, Sat rides and ate thr as well(: teehee. it was really fun! esp the mummy ride(: i love the performance at waterworld too! oh& e monster show and also the battlestar ride. hee. Was really glad Dd enjoyed himself too^^ i see that he is really tired but was really glad tat he pulled through the day! LOVE HIM LOTS. after which we met the rest at Farrer park to have dinner(: teehee. friendly peoples they're(: After dinner, we sang birthday song for DD must really thank the young lady for the lighter. HHAHA. cut-ed cake, presents-time and home sweet home:D haha.

Really glad dd enjoyed his day. keke.

i love him hen duo hen duo(:

Cyber-Bullying

2011-09-12T00:25:00.000-07:00

(Taken from Google image)

Finished watching a show on cyber bullying& i felt really disturbed. No doubt, female and male bullies are everywhr, bt with technology nowadays, it has given them an additional platform to show themselves. Fake identities may be created online; insults and awful languages are used on innocent peoples. Some may start off with people they have held grudges against for quite awhile while some may start off with just a joke.

Many bullies find it 'unreal' as they hide behind their screen and bully people with their words. They've never thought of what the consequences would be like. But truth is, every hurtful thing that is sent out by them affects one's self esteem and prolly even their life. Victims who are cyber-bullied often stay silent about it and would constantly felt that they are driven to the corner; like there's no escape for them. Whats most hurtful is that such pain follows them back home. People always overlook such problems; severe cyber bullying can cause anxiety, depression and even suicidal thoughts. See how serious it is?:/

But what have they done to deserve such treatment?

To all victims of cyber bullying out there, don't be afraid! you can prolly start off by sharing your encounters with your parents or maybe someone you're comfortable with. it is always the first step that are hard to take. Don't entertain the bullies by calling them names because that makes u the bully as well. there are many ways that one can take action on, e.g. printing out the evidence of cyber bullying and reporting it or to just block the contact etc. Know that there are support groups out there which would be glad to be of help, or approach a counselor if needed(: Rmb, it is important to share it with someone you're comfortable with, dun go thru it alone. Friends and family are always there to support u emotionally, physically and mentally(:

So.. how can we play our part? Well, simple! Be thankful for the technology we have; iphone, blackberry, macbook etc, its a privilege for us and lets not misuse it(: hee:D

Till then(:

Spread th love(:

2011-09-10T08:42:00.000-07:00

Hi all, i'm back on the track to volunteer:D Finally my saturdays are free and not occupied with projects. haha. well, at least for this period of time(: So.. actual plan was to attend the session at IMH on my own but since dajie is coincidentally free, i asked for her t join me^^ haha. Went t the ladies wards and it was really fun. They were all so friendly, interacted and sang some songs for them(: happygirl i'm(: i really love to see the smiles on their face. it jus 'warms' my heart so much. haha. Was glad that dajie enjoyed this session and hopefully be interested in more voluntary work in future:D Cant wait for my schedule t be informed by the tcher at spastic children's association:D cant wait to resume my voluntary thr as well!:D hee.

Let us all reach out to more ppl& Spreadthlove(:

Crazy dayout(:

2011-09-08T23:06:00.000-07:00

KBOXX with AHBUDD(:

Ultimate random meetup w YL&J(:

Met my dearest AHBUUDD! like finally(: hee. really miss those times when we jus kept singing in class. haha. &&of course those times we had in music forest:D (Y) So.. went to KBOXX:D teehee^^ Sing Sang Sung! Did some catching up. after which we went to Fareast then back to scape again since YL &Joel are nearby. BUDDs ate pontian noodles:D weewoo. then we met joel at orchard. blahh. walked around the stores. okk, all so high-class ah! what burberry or what ahma bay. iyo. haha. so camwhore and it was rather a great time. it really bring back memories during sec school times. haha. what a crazy day i had(:

&i say you're the only one in my life.

2011-09-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

Hi, i miss you alot):

Have been staying at home the past few days. its so different from my past holidays where i've always been out playing. haha. i wanna work, but i dun feel motivated to look for a job. prolly jus tired of having to face the whole process alone again. i envy those who have their friends with them through their holidays. envy those that dun work alone. envy those that go on shopping spree without having much to worry about. envy those that are leading a meaningful life. envy those that wake up in the morning having plans set ahead for them, unlike me with nothing in mind.

i miss DD. i miss the times i get to spend with him without being afraid of him getting called back to office anytime or even in the middle of our date. i miss the feeling when we can spend the whole night chatting. i miss the days when his mind is free from work. i miss how we used to meet up in the noon after we woke up from our long hours of sleep, just to see each other. i really miss those times.

but i'm gonna endure it. because i know, its going to be for a greater future of ours.

i believe in you, i believe in us. thankyou for every single effort u took to keep me accompanied. really happy and appreciated alot(:

DD jiayous, you know u always have my support no matter what. i love you(:

KBOXX with Dajie(:

2011-09-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

Me & dajie(:

We LOVE singing!

neoprints^^

Genki Sushi

So.. dayout with dajie to KBOXX!(: (Y) awesomme much:D haha. went to scape. the seats was really comfy(: had a great time singing and going crazy when 'high' songs are played. hahaha. After that we walked around the flea and dajie got her envelop wallet. wee:D Wanted to visit the newly opened outlet; H&M BUT the queue was mad crazy. i dun get it, why are there so many people queueing for it. imagine them queueing for more than 5hours then not buying anything in the end. lolol. haha. so anw, had genki sushi for dinner and the food thr was really nice:D haha. i like it. & its super cool, haha. using ipad to make orders. lala. Home sweet home afterwhich(:

笨笨s are backk(:

2011-08-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

Our Mini picnic(:
BenBen:D

ME:D

&you're always on my mind(:

ok, so was out whole day with benben(: like a final meetup! hee. happygirl. i'm near forgetting how it feels like to be out with a friend. sometimes i feel friend-less (i dunno if thrs such words tho), like i have no one to go out with if dd is busy. haha. so yeapp! Decided for a picnic at marina barrage since kbox is really ex on public holi, haha. Weather was really great in the noon, no sun and it was really windy. But that lasted for only 2 hours. haha. then it started to rain. luckily we were already under the shelther from the start. Chit-chatted. really great catching up with her! Camwhored, as usual(: Then home sweet home after our dinner at clementi mall^^

Goodbye exams:D

2011-08-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

Menu!

Lounge(:

Seating! dam comfy:D

iloveyou(:

Exams are finally over! YAYAYAY:D claps to everyone's hardwork(: Celebrated Charlotte's birthday at atrium then off DD and i went to vivo(: watched 'rise of the planet of the apes':D weewoo. AWESOOMME MOVIE:D && its actually our very first time watching a gold class movie(: hee. So before the seatings are ready, we actually rest in a lounge, chit-chated:D it felt so awkward when we first entered the place, cause we were dressed in a very casual attire:x When we are allowed in the cinema, we acted like some gundu peeps. so amazed by the seats and how spacious it was. Started to play with the seats. press button *goes up* press another button *goes down* heh. dam comfy. theres even a towel or whatsoever u call that, to cover your leg when u're cold. hee. ordered a drink and a pie:D its a lil pricy but nice:D haha. it was really an awesome experience(:

2011-08-23T14:45:00.001-07:00

its 5.45 am now and i'm still awake.

look what have exams done to me.

hahaha. still, looking forward to the end of exams^^

JIAYOUSJIAYOUS:D

2011-08-18T07:39:00.000-07:00

i'm the kind of girl who is always deep in thoughts whenever i'm alone. i think about what my life will be without the people who is now with me. what if one day i lose memory of everyone and everything, including the one i love so dearly. what if the next moment i am left with nothing.

well, i dunno if its good to think so much. its like crazy yet silly thoughts. every time i think about these, my tears fall subconsciously. i'm afraid what life have for me but at the same time, anticipating for a great future ahead too. haha. contradicting much. Shared these silly thoughts with DD, cant help but teared again. haha. i'm just weird. pure weird.

So anyway, exams are nearing and i cant wait for it to be over. teehee. Dance tmrr! yay. cant wait too:D My life is filled with love.

Life's great(:

2011-08-17T12:33:00.003-07:00

You make me feel special.

iloveyou(:

Hang in thr(:

2011-08-16T23:52:00.000-07:00

Cant wait for exams to be over^^

JIAYOUS t all my fellow friends(:

Smile(:

2011-08-15T09:46:00.000-07:00

Eve's course(:

One of BUDBUDS' craziest moments(:

DAJIE, WE'RE UP IN THE SKY(:

A simple twist, a simple smile(: (L) BENBENS(:

DANCE4FUN! the BZgroup(:

LOVELY FRIENDS(:

Dearest COUSINS(:

Cambodia is dearly missed by me♥

HI MY DEAR, I LOVE YOUR SMILE(:

Life is short, smile while you still have teeth(:

Attitude

2011-08-13T09:50:00.000-07:00

Attitude.

There are days when i'm really nice, days where i'm so dam patient and days where i'm so impatient that lil things can just piss me off, days where i feel annoyed, days where i feel unappreciated, days where i feel so loved, days where i feel so angelic, days where i feel so monster-y.

Is it normal for me to be experiencing all this? i hope so tho.

Bad attitudes, change? yeahhh. i don't like it in me either.

Everyone makes mistake.

i'll change.

JIAYOUS kiahgek(:

sillywilly

2011-08-12T19:04:00.000-07:00

TADA. was looking at all my pics taken with DD and wow! we have been through many things and celebrated many occassion together(: awesssomme:D haha. Happened to come across this picture and felt it was really a memorable one. Which guuy would be willing to wear a watch with smiley designs on it. i mean, guys see this gay or whatsoever. But DD bought and wore it together with me(: He even wore it to school! touched nehh:X Though this watch was short-lived, i was still happy that we shared such silly memories(: haha. now even when i think of it, it brings smile to my face(: i love you dd(:

(:

2011-08-09T10:31:00.000-07:00

YAY. its Singapore's birthday! 生日快乐:D

A great day spent at DD's(:

:D

2011-08-06T08:06:00.000-07:00

HI:D i'm back to post again. so... dance was really great ystd! everyone was suppose to showcase what we have learnt in groups of six:D i like how the class is enthu about dance:D hee. so after every group showcast-ed, Anan had her solo dance! (Y) AWESOOMMMME:D she dance like some diva. really very cool. hahaha. continueing the next level:D cant wait! teehee^^

2011-08-06T02:42:00.000-07:00

My new blogsong: Today by life begins by bruno mars(:
i dunno why, but when i first heard it, it got me pretty emotional. maybe the melody(: i felt a tug at my heart but i have no idea what was that suppose to mean. so yeah, heres the lyrics:D

Today My Life Begins

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learn how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me i can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's to short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
We only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins...

happy

2011-08-03T02:03:00.000-07:00

i have never thought that after all these years, i can actually feel so happy all over again. The carefree feeling i have always been looking for within me, is back(: & it felt really really great. my capacity to love, forgive and care is back as well(: its really hard to put these feelings in words. but its really amazing. it felt so magical.

To my one and only, thank you so much(:

You're my sunshine(:

2011-07-29T17:39:00.000-07:00

i love you(:

"You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away"

life's been great despite all projects! haha. living my with days in laughter& i'm loving it(: presentation today, i was still nervous and shaky. but ohwell. haha. after dance, dd came to my house and rested. tired us. then DANCEEEE(: was late tho. and no one can imagine what we were doing in the train, so hilarious. haha. so anw dance today was great(: learnt new steps! but it was quite tough tho. heh. gonna train hard!:D:D ohoh! and i collected my sweatpants(: like finally:D haha. so met up with junjie together with DD and dajie, had dinner^^ yummms. chatted on our way back. then home sweet home(:

2011-07-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

BLAHHHH. still buried with all projects. but its ok, its going be over real soon! hang in there:D:D at least i have something to look forward to in the midst of busy-ness. HAHA. my dramas new uploads(: but of course i don't watch it everyday. i watch it when only when i feel that i deserve to reward myself. teehee. ok, just a short post. back to projects now(:

i'm happy(:

Words.

2011-07-26T08:32:00.000-07:00

Yes& that's how powerful words can be. Whether is it during conversation, heart-to-heart talks or even jokes, it is really important to be sensitive to feeling of whoever u're talking to. Just because one seem unaffected, doesn't mean they don't mind. it prolly just meant that they are trying to swallow the pain in silence, thinking of ways to stop those tears from falling. i believe everyone have been through times when they receive nasty comments. well, think about it. how does it feels like? awful isn't it. especially when its words that brings you, your self-esteem& confidence down.

i always tell myself this; its that feeling i cant get rid off& i wouldn't wish for others to experienced it too.

Because if you were to understand how it feels like, to be so crashed inside when all the while you have been trying to build up your self-esteem& confidence then you would definitely be sensitive with the things you are going to say.

Just a random thought, a random post(:

2011-07-15T21:55:00.001-07:00

Whosh. workload is piling up, but i know i can do it. jiayous(:

Changed perspective

2011-07-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hi all:D i'm back to post! So today is definitely one of the most interesting lesson we had in this semester(: We went to visit the foreign worker's dormitory& we even got to interact with them. i swear, my perspective towards this group of FWs definitely changed 180degrees. They are so different from what i expected them to be. &&i must really admit that, all this while i have been seeing them in a different light, stereotyping them just because of what a few people from their group have done. In actual fact, they are really friendly. really really friendly! Despite the low pay and hard work they have to go through everyday, they are still very happy with their work. Coming from a country without any proper education, they strive hard and are more determine to learn new things and improve themselves, compared to most of us. Their willingness to learn really touched me. They really deserve to be treated equally. they are just like all of us. They have emotions too, everyday they miss their love ones, wanting to earn more money, so better life can be forged, not for themselves but also for their own family, their children, their wife.

Fruitful experience, changed perspective(:

2011-07-11T09:33:00.000-07:00

"Surrender is giving up control not losing power."

frankly speaking, i'm really lucky. i have a life which is near perfect, which gives me even more reason to be contented about. i face problems, but they were never big to the extent that can take my breath away. However, there are some people who are left with no choice but to stay strong, no matter what happen. i've learnt that accepting the truth, the harsh reality is the least one should do. Because if we choose to turn away from the truth all the time, then we would be living in self-denial. isn't it? Also by accepting the truth also meant a step in moving forward. Maybe one may feel helpless and lost, but never forget as long as one is still alive, until the very last breath, hope still exist.

Just to add on, recently i've read a book;life lesson for loving the way you live&& in one of the chp, it talks about a girl who was born with a musical background; with her parents being singers and musicians. At the age of 4, she was already learning different type of instruments, singing and dancing. Music was simply her life. One day(already an adult), she got into a car accident, her injuries was devastating. What mattered most was that her vocal cords, trachea and esophagus had been destroyed. She could hardly talk, let alone sing. Her life is gone, literally. All the best thing that ever happen in her life just disappeared in a blink of an eye. But she knew she had to surrender to the moment, the reality. Given her condition, the docs told her that she would nt be able to talk again. Instead of being sad and depressed, she was in the state of awe and gratitude& never thought of giving up. She mediated everyday and was very patient, tho now, she is still on her route of recovery but at least she has successfully got back into the music industry,being able to record songs etc!(:

The reason why i shared this is because i wanted to tell everyone out there that no matter how bad the situation is, theres always light. i know action speaks louder than words.& i always wonder if i'm able to do it if i happen to be the person. well, my ans would be no. But it is important that we change our mindset now. who knows, one day we may turn out to be stronger and more positive than we expect ourselves to.

Live in gratitude, always believe. (:

Choice of life

2011-07-10T20:15:00.000-07:00

"Whatever you put attention on grows stronger in your life."

& this quote applies to negativeness and positiveness in life as well(: When we focus on darkness, we just allow ourselves to fall deeper and deeper into darkness whereas when we focus on light, we will see all the goods in life and attract the light.

So whats your choice of life?(:

Negativity VS Positivity

2011-07-07T01:59:00.000-07:00

Have you ever breakdown several times just at the thought that u're not good enough for anything? well, i did. today on my way home, i questioned myself as to why i've become like this. ain't i very positive in the past. The one word that people have got for me would definitely be "positivegirl" but now? hahaha. so yeah. just kept thinking but t no avail. maybe theres too many factors causing me to be like this. Things that cause my mentality to negatively change how i view myself.

Today in school, i felt so terrible. i didn want to shed any tears but when i'm with DD, i just let my guards down subconsciously. He is the only one who have seen through all the weakness in me. DD told me stories as to how everything that had happened is good. Everything, no matter good or bad, happened for a reason. i felt enlighten after hearing those stories from him. He told me that it is important that i learn to accept who i am, including all my flaws. i need to learn to love everything about me, which i felt was true.

Time after time, i tried to push away negativity in me but i failed terribly. Each time, i felt worser about myself. i could hardly control my own emotions. But i'm glad, to have such an AWESOMEE bf(: like really. Also, recently i have been reading a book; "Life lessons for loving the way you live", i see lil hope about my future sparkling in me. the book is filled with total positivity. Maybe just what i needed.

So i've done my own reflection, and i'm determine to start making changes for real. no more empty words. But of course, baby steps. i want to be positive and i want to reach out to many people, to also spread positivity, to help them. &&How could i even do it with such mentality of mine now?

so change, is exactly what i need now.

**to anyone out there who is facing/feeling exactly how i'm, dun fret, u're not alone(: lets make the change and be a better person(:

jiayous!(:

2011-07-05T09:54:00.000-07:00

Manage to get one work completed, so here i'm now to blog(: haha. gonna be so packed with projects and all for this month. Glad that i dun feel stress up or anything, yet. haha. Have been goin to the lib quite often recently(: teehee. found books which i'm interested in and finally after so long, i'm reading again! haha.

Just a short update about my day!

gtg. goodnight earthlings!(:

Personality test

2011-07-03T23:41:00.000-07:00

Did this during HRM(: coolz. remind me of those time in social psych class. haha. Anw, i got the result of Introverted, Sensing, Feelings and Judgement. its quite accurate tho!(:

ISFJ - "Conservator". Desires to be of service and to minister to individual needs - very loyal. 13.8% of total population.

Personality Test by SimilarMinds.com

Detailed explanation of my personality:

http://www.personalitypage.com/html/ISFJ.html

2011-07-03T10:27:00.000-07:00

DD, sounds familiar?(: *click on image to read the words*

Are we all suppose to be who we are?

2011-07-02T07:31:00.000-07:00

If we are observant enough, we will usually see similiar actors/actresses appearing in different dramas. Most of the time, they are usually those that are more well-known compared to others. Each time they appear infront of the screen, they take up different roles. Sometimes, i really wonder.. Wonder if they have lost their real self in the process of pursing their career to a higher level. Everyday, they are living in planned dramas and stories which are written for them. When will they be able to write their own life stories? when will they be able to pursue their own happiness, other than career? Even in times of sadness and despair, they still have to appear cheery and happy infront of all the cameras. Maybe it has already become a part of their daily routine to do so.

I know this post is getting no where but it just struck me when i was watching some taiwan dramas. i always get very engrossed because i always imagine myself to be the main role in every drama i watch, because i want to try to feel what they are feeling. yes, ok, i know its very silly. but well~ thats me. i remember there was once i watched da chang jin, and after i finish all the eps, i was just stuck feeling really emotional cause i cried too much previously. haha. so dumb of me.

2011-07-01T08:50:00.000-07:00

i'm selfish, what to do?

Take a look at this:D ChurpChurp adv(:

2011-06-29T08:18:00.000-07:00

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near future.

2011-06-29T04:07:00.000-07:00

What do i see myself to be doing in my near future? Every step i take, the clock is ticking. its waits for no one. i'm afraid of growing up. Can i just stay like how i'm now?): silly isn't it.

but really, i'm afraid.

Honesty

2011-06-28T06:42:00.001-07:00

Being a forgetful&restless girl today, i misplaced my phone in attic this morning before going to lesson. i didn realise it till end of lesson, tho i felt that something was missing bt i didn bother to look for it. heh:x So i was really lucky that when i found out that my hp was missing, we were alr in attic. DD calmed me down and started to analyze the situation. Approached a girl&& bingo. found my phone!:D was so happy and grateful for having such honest people in NP. hee. and of course i'm thankful t have DD being there to help me. if not, u will see me running around the school trying to look for my phone. lmao. haha. so yeapp. i'm really lucky. thank god for such honest people around. teehee.

i promise to be more alert in future.

2011-06-26T10:56:00.000-07:00

Yooo! haha. haven been blogging much. no inspiration to do so neh. So bro book out last fri and we all got to see his botak head. dang, my immediate reaction when i saw him was 'OMGGG. is that u?!?' haha. really epic. but well, bro looks nicer with a tanner skin. was really glad to know that he was having so much fun in army.(: good sergeant, bunk mates and everything! really glad& relieve to know that(: haha. So sent bro off on sunday. Seriously, i cant handle goodbyes. haha. it never fails to make me teary. i just dislike the feeling of saying goodbye, dislike how it feels like to walk in a different direction. what a weakling. ohwell.

(:

2011-06-19T10:57:00.000-07:00

Finally back to blogging again^^ So.. DD&I celebrated our first year anni on 170611:D teehee. we wanted to watch kungfu panda but no seats available except for front row so we decided to watch Mr popper's penguin instead. ITS SO CUTEEE!(: hee. love penguins^^ haha. Anw to those who haven't watch this movie, i really urge u to do so! haha. its very entertaining:D hee. so back to whr i was, yes. first year anniversary! haha. so basically we spent our day at cine then at night we had dance at scape with alicia and dajie(: haha. was in the same class as esther and joel too! so qiao. haha. Met junjie after that at justacia and had our dinner. thanks dajie ad jj for the gift(: its really cute.

Thankyou Dd for accepting me for who i am, like really(: i'm not perfect, i have many many flaws but he love everything about me. he is proud of who i'm when i'm not even proud of myself. he makes me feel really appreciated and only with him, will u see that big wide smile on me(: i've never felt so comfortable being with anyone before. teehee. xie xie ni and i love you:D

2011-06-15T06:24:00.001-07:00

i hate feeling lonely in crowded places.

2011-06-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

HEE. So noon was dull and all. But met junjie and dajie for dinner(: chatted. then met DD around 9plus!:D SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM! LIKE ALWAYS:D haha. that feeling is just hard to describe, its like i felt so happy and energize when i met him. teehee! so the four of us chatted till 11pm then head home(: It was a great chat, haha. joked and stuff. everything felt so great(:

Like what we have been doin the past few days, DD and i talked about our future, what its gonna be like and his goals while waiting for our bus(:

i like how we think far, about the future, about us. (:

2011-06-13T21:51:00.001-07:00

What has this world become to?:/ why is this world full of revenge& hate. People get married then start cheating on one another. Cheat already still not enough, revenge. aw. talking about how nice this person is compared to their own husband/ wife. ok, don't even talk about marriage manzxc. Even relationships nowadays are like that too. People cheat on one another. More and more each time. anw, the above mentioned has nothing to do with my family or whatsoever.=.= LOL.

But of course, on the positive side, this world is definitely beautiful, given that i'm not involved in one of those awful dramas. I am happy with my life and definitely appreciate my dearest bf(: OHHH! talking about this, benben is now attached!! so happy for her♥ teehee!

AWESOOMMME:D

2011-06-11T07:07:00.000-07:00

Spent my whole day with this 2 crazy girls and they just bombard me with all their korean and bio chim terms. HAHA. um, wonder how i even survive? hahaha. of course, i joined in by talking rubbish. well, i know i may sound or look stupid, but it felt really great to hear those laughters. worth it!(: So walked around town. Shirley got her cool jacket(hhahaha.) while Sarah got her big tee, and i really mean it, BIG. well, thats just how unique my cousins are(: haha. and i love them alot:D We also bought our cousin tee:D hee. On top of that, i really love the feeling when i'm with them. they gave me the words to make me feel confident about myself! hee. felt really awesoome:D

They are beautiful to me and i love them just the way they are!(:

you're a part of me(:

2011-06-09T20:21:00.000-07:00

So, impromptu date with DD ystd!:D We had our dinner at Justacia && we went to national museum after that(: haha. my first time there tho. hee. Camwhored after that!:D

I love&cherish every moment with DD. he makes me feel alive(:

he's my happy pill, my soulmate.(:

i love you:D

):

2011-06-06T06:39:00.000-07:00

Bro is going off to army tmr:/ 我不舍得! gonna be so lonely at home noow. no one to talk to in the middle of the night, no one to go crazy with at home, no company for supper,no blasting of akb songs from his room. sighhh. i know its not like he wouldn be home. but well, most of the time he will be in army ah:/iamasadgirl.

But anw, really hope he will do well there. gonna see his shiny botak head tmr. i'm a strong girl! yessss. i'll be looking forwards to the fridays when he will be back^^ better take care of yourself i tell you><

Disappointment

2011-06-05T10:27:00.000-07:00

WARNING; NEGATIVENESS AHEAD.

READ IT AT UR OWN RISK.

Sometimes all we want to do, is to love those who was suppose to deserve it the most. Maybe it was too naive of us to think that way. Reality is always cruel. You can picture happy endings, positive outcomes but just sometimes, things dont go our way. The first word heard from the other person's mouth is just so hurtful. You start seeing all the hurt, feel all the anger, feel the disappointment. Yes, i may be smiling whenever all this happen, acting like i dun give a dam. but really, i feel so upset. everytime this happens, i just have to wait till i'm alone to take that smile off my face. He have done what he could, maybe its my turn? maybe i should try taking the step out. Can i say that he is one of my fear. how sad right.

all i hope is for u t just hear what he've got to say. is it so difficult?

p/s i understand this may be confusing to readers for the diff "he". but i guess it doesnt matter so much eh.

2011-06-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

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2011-06-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

i love being cheery and happy. i love smiling. but i guess, its ok to be sad sometimes. Everyone struggle with their emotions at some point of time and i think i'm just one of those weirdos whose mood changes so quickly. is there anything wrong with me?:/ at one point of time, i can be very hype up and happy, and the next moment i can be low and emotional. whyy? haha. weird.

Lying down since we fast from sitting! haha.(:

So anw. its HMS day today(: frankly speaking, i'm really happy to be in the HMS family. so, fasting today for past the fast challenge. fast from sitting and eating ice for 8hours:D hahaha. imagine me and DD standing up in munch during our lunch breaks to have our meal. hahaha. but it was a really memorable experience. "Purpose of this event is to increase empathy regarding issues of poverty and hunger and also to promote meaningful reflections on many things we are so dependent on, or we have taken for granted in a material and busy world. && i really agree. cause lil things like the ability to talk, the chairs we have, the shoes we wear are often overlook by all of us. Through this event, i really learn to be even more appreciative of such lil things in life.

We should all be grateful of what we have. we're all lucky earthlings. cheers!^^

2011-05-22T07:06:00.000-07:00

One week of elearning gone just like that. didnt submit my finmgt work. didn get to revise any workk. sighh. blame it on my poor time management. dang. tmr is gonna be a full day of studyin till 6>< bet i'm going to fall aslp half way. typical me. tskkk.

but anw, hope that tmr will be a great day ahead(:

tatas.

2011-05-21T23:32:00.001-07:00

Think positive. yes, thats what i will do. <-- u guys have no idea how many times i rewrite before coming out with this sentence. haha.

Sometimes i feel that i'm still unwilling to face the world, to face the fact that one day i'll be like all the working adults in the society. Being in the office, doing paperwork. nooo:/ The thought of it just scares me, not because i'm spoilt(i'm nt kay!-.-) and hate working. its because i know that thats not something i'm going to enjoy doing in future. Guess with this kind of attitude in me, i cant go far. nonetheless, i've got to stay positive. I need to find worth in myself. i need to know that there is something out there which i would love to commit in.

When will i be willing to take my very first step?:/ Time waits for no one.

everyone's moving forward, except me.

HEHE.

2011-05-20T09:08:00.001-07:00

(:

2011-05-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

Everyday is a day to be thankful for(: *just a random thought tho* haha. Umm, i'm now officially 18! legal for M18 movie and blahhh. surprisingly, these stuff dun excite me at all. lol. hahha. Anw, i'm gonna talk about ystd!(: DD, Dajie and benben was with me through this special day. thankful(: All the surprises and such. haha. Went to... (i forget whats that place le=.=) for buffet after much discussion. hahaha. YUMMY YUMMY. ate alooot! thanks for the treat(: Went archade after that, played and took neo print(its been years. haha):D &&i won in daytona! dam happy. haha. k, i know its childish of me but whatever!:D i won(: LALALALA. Mos burger then back to my house. Played monopoly deal. HAHA. *ji dong* Lights went off then birthday cake!(: (Y) hee. so touched when i see DD bringing the cake in. HAHA.

Thankyou everyone for your well wishes on fb, twitter, msges and especially those who made my day a awesome one. love all of you(:

Change

2011-05-11T04:10:00.000-07:00

I must always bear in mind that everyone is going through their own problems and i shouldn't be so selfish to just think about myself. its really time for another round of self reflection. Not only that, i must start learning to be more independent. i am always depending on DD, thinking that he will always be by my side 24/7. But truth is, that is not going to happen.

So, i got to learn. learn to be independent. learn to be strong.

I find myself having difficulties handling my emotions now. Sometimes negative feelings just start haunting me, making me feel really useless and sad. am starting to let my duper emotional side out to the whole world. the thought of it just makes me feel so....:/ argh. KIAHGEK, YOU NEED A CHANGE! gotta find my confidence back.

kinda miss the girl i used to be; happy-go-lucky. understanding. emotional but strong.

but of course i'm happy noow. Just that, i'm going to find back some missing positive traits of mine. jiayous kiahgek(:

2011-05-08T10:50:00.000-07:00